Entry for January 20, 2006

Worked through the lunch hour -well, a can of Slimfast kept me alive but kept my thoughts off food - forgoing Chinese. Needed to economize due to holiday bills. I love the day shift - arriving almost before the sun is up puts little strain on my distended eye. Leaving, though, is another story. Had found a bottle-green pair of cataract sunglasses (the wraparound kind) and slapped them on over my prescription lenses.Second surgery date is official. Still praying FERVENTLY that I won't need it. When I think about the nausea, tearing, inflammation, traction on the facial muscles and eye itself, dizziness due to anesthetic and inability to focus, and then someone reminds me I may have to go through all that AGAIN, I feel like a cow at the beginning of a killing chute: there is no way out, and this is NOT going to end well. Have looked up vitrectomy on several medical sites, and the results are NOT encouraging. . .it's far more invasive than cataract, less guaranteed, and might result in retinal detachment anyway, which is what they're seeking theoretically to prevent.Oy vey. TBC
Saturday January 21, 2006 - 05:44pm (PST) Edit Delete